I am up at 6 something, before 6:30 anyway, probably because of sleeping most of the day yesterday when I got home lol My leg has recovered from the long drive and I am thankful for the rejuvenation that a good nights sleep brings. I take the dogs out and am immediately reminded that though sleep brings rejuvenation it hasnt brought a cure ;-/ I only make it around a quarter of the building before the pressure starts to build and the burning starts. You would think after almost 2 and a half years of this that I would be somewhat use to it eh? I think it is just that it is becoming tiresome for me.
By 7:45, I have had morning conversation with my daughter before she leaves for work and received a call from the appliance repairman who says he'll be at my apartment this morning by 8:30 Yay! My daughter leaves; repairman comes; repairman goes and I am left with a sense of what else should I do today? I mean it is only 3 weeks to the day and I should be doing something, shouldn't I? I look around me and I see semi organized boxes, now these in themselves are not daunting to me in general but where to start is the question so rather than sit here and waste time pondering, I think I will just do ;-D When my leg tells me to, I will sit for a bit and write some more lol ciao
I have discovered that I use music to help block out the negative thoughts that try to creep in my mind when doing repetitive work such as household chores. Usually, I like the silence but I am finding that if I am in it too long, especially when having to do something menial, it is a welcome distraction. I really hope my doctor allows my MP3 player in the operating room ;-D He has very good taste in music himself but it would be nice to listen to my personal playlists so we'll see I suppose. So I now have my tunes going and for personal reasons, I have set it to shuffle . . . .
Interesting which songs come up, gotta love Bruce Hornsby ;-D I have some of his best stuff including one of my favs Jacobs Ladder. The sax & guitar rifts resonate with my soul.
Tomorrow is my boyfriends day off and of course, he asks me if I have any appointments, the dear that he is and I say no appointments but my oh my, why yes, yes I do lol I want so much to get this place in order but there are other things to be taken care of as well and I seem to be just letting them slip by, sigh, like an unconscious rebellion against the amputation: is that normal? I hope so.
After truly thinking about it, I need to do several things, like get to my docs office to sign the paperwork and pick up the lattice for the patio and/or the lifts for the sofas; plus my one and only prescription should be refilled as well ;-/ while I am at it, I need to check the status of my supplement supply, I only have to have a weeks worth for the hospital and the girls can bring my refills for that as they get used up ;-D
I find that I am seemingly running this particularly day in some kind of loop!!! lol Because it is now 2:22 am on Day 20, this actually makes it even more confusing, thus the title ;-/ It will be one more thing to be grateful for when I have more time to devote to this blog ;-D Peace
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