Day 21

This chapter actually started yesterday on Day 23. I apologize for the "gap" as I have actually experienced several incidents worthy of commenting on here but with family and travel, it was not always appropriate to be on a computer to continue my writing. First I would like to say that I just cannot believe that it is already day 21. "Time flies when you're having fun" or so they say, I think it is just preoccupation, which in my case can be a good thing but when I think in terms of how much time I have left with my foot, it doesnt seem so great.
Anyway, after an enjoyable time with family in Washington, my brother and I left my sister and her partner around 10 in the morning on monday; choosing to take a different route home up throught the okanagan and stopping in Kelowna to visit one of my nieces and though she said we could stay and take off again in the morning, we chose to leave and be on our way. I think both my brother and I needed to be getting home. For me anyway, time seems to be slipping away.;-/
While in the States, besides the nurse from adult aids to daily living, calling to set up my assessment appointment, my vascular surgeons office called to say they needed me to sign consent and waiver forms ;-/ consent, ok, yes, I am consenting to this operation, but waiver?!? of what? my rights? the doctors responsibility if things go wrong?? So I ask his nurse if he wants to see me at all before the surgery because I would like to see him and she tells me that no, he hasnt asked them to schedule anything with me. . . . hmmmm, is there something wrong with this picture?!? I dont know about you but I think so. Granted he may know me to be the kind of person that would research the whole ordeal to death but then he must also know that I would have been flooded with information about various procedures that may or may not be used during the course of this operation. I would like to know specifically what he plans to do, where he plans to take it off? What kind of dressing is he going to use? Is he ok with me not being sedated again? and can I bring my mp3? lol I guess I just have to say that I am a little dissappointed that he would not have thought that I might need a little time with him BEFORE the surgery. Well, as it stands now his nurse is going to relay my request to see him and we'll see what it nets me. The assessment that AADL called to set up is for equipment like, bath seats, bars etc to help me when I get back home. Apparently the government pays for the equipment if you qualify financially. Interestingly enough, I do so they are sending someone to assess my needs and see if there is anything else that I might be able to use. Apparently, it is a male nurse who is coming out, I mention this because apparently it is no longer necessary to ask a person if this is ok? Not that it matters to me but I know women who would not appreciate a male nurse and would be quite uncomfortable and I guess that I am surprised that society has already deemed this insignificant enough to not bother asking.
So, I mentioned that we left by 10 am yesterday and we were to take our time coming back, after all we had made it down there in 14 and a half hours and didnt need to be rushed. There is something about heading home that seems to underlie all that, like a constant "tug" on the heart. It seems to be a need for the familiar and for me a desire to get back to my life and the details of that; particularly getting back to my countdown. It is the beginning of Day 20 as I finish this and I realize that time is going a heck of a lot faster than I thought it was going to. I am starting to get that little panicky feeling in the back of one's mind that says it's all gonna be here too soon. I plan to deal with these feelings with preparedness. I believe that fear can be relieved with knowledge, the unknown can be our own worst enemy. I will concede that the knowledge one may obtain might not be what one wants to hear but informed decisions are better than ones made ignorantly. I know this from personal experience LOL and so far have not had occasion to change my mind.
Not rushing, took us 23 hours all told; 16 of that being my brothers skillful driving and 7 being the wonderful visit with my niece and her significant other who I might add is a very good cook ;-D We hit the city around 9 am this morning and I arrived home around 10. I was exhausted lol more so than I thought while on the trip. You know how it is, one never really knows how tired they are till they get home or a chance to relax. Anyway, I barely got my stuff or I should say my brother barely got my stuff in the door and after he left I went straight to bed. My leg was throbbing from toes to knee and I couldnt help thinking this cannot be good. Though I set my alarm for 4:20 pm I didnt get up till after 5:30 when my my daughter got home from work. I felt somewhat refreshed but still tired and had this sense of urgency, as if I had just wasted the day sleeping. I should thank my eldest daughter here because the organization and what unpacking she did get done while I was gone went a long way to ease the aforementioned feeling.
The evening was filled with my youngest daughter, a friend and my boyfriend all stopping by. It was my 14th anniversary on Monday the 6th and my guy remembered without prompting!!! lol He says it's a guy thing when they don't remember but he obviously cares enough to make the effort ;-D He got me a portable greenhouse! I am excited for though I may not use it this year, I will definitely use it soon, maybe start plants indoors towards the end of winter for next year. I got him some funny stuff, bacon flavored effervescent drink tabs {don't ask lol} and a chinese ornament representing his chinese zodiac sign the ox, however this particular artist called it a cow ;-/ my boyfriend is probably wondering, what the heck am I suppose to do with this??? oh well, maybe it's secret payback for the box of cereal lmao
Now at almost 2 am, I am still awake though not for long. I have so much to do and so little time. I am going to take things as they come and try not to stress myself out. My eldest suggested we do plaster foot prints ;-D I told her I thought that was a good idea and on THAT note, I am going to bed - Peace