The Countdown

I have decided to start a countdown of sorts ;-/ for 2 reasons really; the first is because it is practical. In the grand scheme of life we humans have to plan things, or at least I know I do lol With the date of my amputation being June 28th and an impending move this weekend, I have decided to start the countdown on the 30th of May. This gives me 30 days up to and including the day of the operation to prepare. Which brings me to the second reason lol I need to be in control of something, there, I said it lol My daughters will say well that's nothing new but what I don't think they realize is that it use to be a LOT worse lmao I have learned over the years to "let go" of many things but when you have obsessive compulsive tendencies, there are a few lingering remnants, you know lol Anyway, I believe that having a countdown will not allow me to procrastinate and give me something to focus on as I continue to prepare both mentally and physically. Speaking of physically, I have also decided that I need to start some kind of exercise regimen, even if it is only my upper body. I am NOT looking forward to this but because I see the logic, I will do my best. So as of yesterday, no more "treats" {sigh} not even under the guise of comfort, which is what my family is notorious for lol. We will see how it goes ;-D
I have done  a fair amount of research on amputations since finding out I am a candidate for one, so I guess that would be a little over 2 years. I didnt delve into it right off the bat as I did not want to put "energy" into it manifesting but as the other operations failed one by one, and it became the logical step vs continuing to endure chronic pain, I consented. And by consented, I don't mean to the doctor but to myself, I am not going to say resigned because I believe that anything is possible even miracles, just not sure I am predestined for one ;-/
In my research, I have learned that the operation entails a 1-3 week stay in hospital or acute care and then a 1-3 month or longer stay in a rehabilitation hospital. When my doctors office called with the date, I was informed that I am only scheduled to be at the hospital for 7 days, 1 week with a transfer to the rehab hospital after that. How long do I think I will be there? Well, I'd like to think I would be back home in my new apartment by September ;-) wishful thinking? Only time will tell - Peace

Author's Note: For the first few days, until my countdown, my posts may be a bit sporadic lol just until I get moved really which is going to be this weekend ;-D I need to be packing and not procrastinating because its Friday already LOL